Lottery jackpot or debts life?!

Which is one better then? Is it purely life changing that you win a jackpot, for a amount of 1million dollars? For most people yeah it would change their lives, but also it would ruin their lives. It is astonishing to see such a big amount of money in their bank accounts, specially if they haven't seen more than 1000$ per month on their bank account.
 Same for me, because I would be stunned to see such a big pile of cash in my card, I would go nuts from shopping to be honest, but in the same time I wouldn't waste all those millions dollars, I'd simply take actions that would provide me more cash, instead of wasting it in a matter of month or two.
  But why is it that people go bankrupt in a month after the win of lottery? It's so easy to understand, you, me, everyone have got their dreams, who wants 5 cars, who wants 10 houses, who wants to party in Las Vegas for a week, the dreams are endless and in the same time, our mind simply won't work on the : "whoa whoa, stop right there horsey, you got 20k left from 1million". They keep on wasting it until its over, and they are back in debts.
 Serves them right, and I can only blame one thing on this problem, schools!!!! Dam right, no offence to students, but no school in hole white world, teaches how to overcome with money. You can get worlds best education on electronics, chemistry, etc, but no one in world teaches you what to do with the money once you have it! And that is why people who do use their brain and skills from learning : "How to avoid being in debts", they get richer everyday, and the people who don't use their brain simply work for 50 years and then die, without ever doing anything special.



Anything else what I'd love to write about? Not really, sneezing my face off, 19 sneezes in a row is my record today!!!
 I got to think about my own dreams, 1/100 is complete and all that in 4 years, I gotta live to a 150 years old then to finish all my dreams :) Wish me good luck ha ha ha!

What men should really do?!?

Every man, including me, loves football, formula1, beer(not me) etc, however most men have no idea on how to act in a relationship.  Take some examples from the shitty actions I've done.

 1. Ignoring- NEVER EVER do this shit, unless you've come for one night stand with a woman. I've done such accidental moves a few times and the end result was I almost lost her for good.

2. Cheating - Your mind is a total retarded mode, not to mention your kuku, if you cheat, you don't love her as you claim. The worst is to cheat during the time the guy is drunk, oky the mind stops working, but enough beer and the kuku won't work for any woman as well. Double reason not to cheat.
3. Lieing- Where does this lead to? No where, so why lie at all? Any lie comes out at some point, and as the time goes on, the worst it will be towards others, and your girl.
4. Fighting-  A man who raises a hand towards a female, is the most senseless guy ever. Why? How about females don't have a power of a single man, who can hit with 600kg power towards anything. Secondly the mind of a man, who thinks, "Oky, ill hit her once, she shuts up and i can drink my beer again", that simply won't work. Women remember things, such as hitting her, for their whole life, no matter what they say in the end! Remember that guys!
 5. Pointless argue?- Oky, this may sound ridicolus. but without point, why argue at all? Instead its a lot more fun to have fun in bed, less stress for you two and more fun. You get my point, your a good guy, didn't get it, 4th grade in school awaits you :)


Well the list can go beyond those 5, but those I did list here, have a huge affect on your relationship :)

 A lot of new stuff tomorrow for you all :) See you then  (:

P.S I have got to get rid of my sneezing, and clean my keyboard, stupid nose!

"Your mind, Your weirdness"

The mind is a complex storage of information. Interesting, but what would happen if we would actually use it? What would happen if we would combine our minds and our own fantasies or weirdness's?  Would it be next generation of morons, who drive with 1994 BMW 525's or a big genius such as Einstein?
 I like to use my mind, its power is endless, however, too much brain work can lead to a serious headache, much more worse than your worst hangover from last nights visit to club. But one thing I find really funny is the way my mind, as a man, in bed works, or does it actually? I should think so, otherwize I wouldn't find her G-Spot in few seconds( that's what she claims).
What was the best thing I could come up with my mind? Ooh, what's that site Askmen, hmm oky, looks fun... omfg it is a lot fun, must inspect more. I remember looking into the site, and frankly one of the best things happened to me in my life. The best thing, what has happened, well you should know it quite well :)


 Kylie Minoque has her concert today in Saku Suurhall, Tallinn. Was quite awesome to see her in real life, as I was securing her room, for none douches to walk in. Anyhow, when she 1st noticed me, I tried my best and smiled. Before she walked into the room, next to me she stopped and told me: " Your the 1st security guard who smiles at his duties, but your so sweet"
 Now that was funny feeling :)

4 Elements!?

Oky, so after hearing a awesome fantastic etc song called "4 Elements", I was staggering of its bass. However I also got to think about the 4 elements for a happy relationship. After a serious consideration and looking at my own relationship, I found out those 4 but meaningful elements: "Trust;Love,Safety feeling, conversation between the two"
 Although they are all quite easy to accomplish most men never get it. Who has a crush for a woman for her body, who loves a woman for simply good sex, so there are a lot of different loves, but trust is what 99% of the male society fail upon.
 Conversation is something what is really important between the two people, specially the ones in relationship. Its like this: " Uhm, baby you want sex?" I mean that's not really good to ask now would it? As of this example, sex should be natural and without words, you can even see it from the persons eye and actions whether its sex she wants or a dinner (:
A blaga buga muga? I start to think I am a twin of Karin. We are so similar, its incredible, just like a drop of water, well not 100% she has a boobs and I got small nipples.( thank god I don't have male boobs)


 Well what's more interesting, aah dam I hate my low ass net speed with the slow ISP stuff in tallinn. I prolly lost 3 really good stuff on lockerz today, such as Apple Macbook Air, Ipod touch 32GB 4G one, etc. Sux :( Oh well next time I'll get it straight =)
 Cheers :)

Changed?

Am I changed? I am, because she made me a whole new person in quality, and she made me stop lieing, the biggest problem I had. I love her so much!!!!!! <3
 I am so stunned when she told me about my "golden hands and tongue" Although I don't think I'm so purely perfect, but in a case to her point of view, it might be just like it. For me though she is perfect :) and she always will be.
I so love my CSI series! CSI: New York and NCIS! Two of the best.


 I came to a perfect idea of what to do, another plan. :D Phase 1- Think. Phase 2- Think more. Phase 3- Act. Phase 4- "Ou jea"
 The simpliest way to put in a matter of words how my brain works is: " It goes round and round and round, and finally stop in the middle"


  

Hurted or disappointed?

So which is worse actually? Getting hurt by the boy/girl you love, or being disappointed in him/her? Interesting question that is, however I find that both of them are equally bad. Specially during the times such as Valentines day. I know it myself a lot, because I've ruined this years valentines day :(  I hope that I have enough balls to fix it with a special day for her. I gotta put my mind working, badly badly work on it.
 Enough of that, I'm beginning to realize all my actions done in ooh past 5 years have had a bad affect on other people around me. Anyhow, time to put my self-centered brain into action and change myself 180 degrees, or atleast 179 degrees. I don't like how I've lied to people, and that has to change.
 A small update on the decisions I've made is that I'll be moving to Valga, even though Tallinn has quite a lot to offer, it ain't the place I like to live in. Pass by there, sure, but living there has no point. A small step back has occured to my plans, stupid arses G4S on valga denied to take me to their company for the reasons as I simply asked 8 hour work days and didn't agree on 12-24 hour ones. That's normal? Hell no, I've been working 24 hours row , record goes above 44 hours, and it is killing a man, no matter how much they it won't.
 Taio Cruz- No other one. Simply one of the best songs, I just hope she realized I will never leave her, and that no other woman will never be like her in my eyes.


I'm so going to kiss you when I see you,
there are no limits to what I will do.
Your the sun in the morning in my eyes
I'm going to see myself never tell lies


I told you I love you from the very start
The dreams I have we'll never be apart
The sun shines so brightly in the sky
When I open my eyes I'll say Hi
Believe in me when I say this
You and me thats my biggest wish


A few lines that just popped in my mind.

Bad day or what?

Oky so today happened a lot. First of all I woke up the wrong way, almost fell down on my face on the floor. Then I had a big fight with Karin, almost everything I ever dreamed off were washed away in front of my eyes. But then again, as the day moved on I had a small walk to a secret spot of mine,  lay there in the snow, for 30 minutes and watched the sky, and came to think about myself, my doings and my future. However, after a hour or two of talks we came to a peace round and I got my final chance. And this time, for the love god, I won't blew it, if I will I will go walk naked on Viru Center.
 Uuh, I just love my classmate Raido, the teenager has some serious menopause for small boys turned on. Other than that, he tried to seduce Karin. ( low-life)  Ironic as it may seem, but I even feel sorry for him, at some point. The guy never knows how to act nor how to respect others stuff( hint hint)
 Club-Asteria is working for me again, pushing the limits further and further :)
I also realized the thing that matters the most in life. People keep saying "You can't live with a woman and you can't be without one" However, I got a perfect solution for this.  Get the right girl and you can't live without her. When you know you've found someone, you can always count on her/him.
More or less, I've learned my lesson today, and learning new lessons soon:)

Surronding noises?

Annoying people, bad voices, everything that is negative is so lame. Has anyone tried to go on a bus in Tallinn, drive from the 1st stop to the last stop, and watching, just watching, people and how they act? That is so freaky, every single person, has that low life face on themselves, constantly thinking about shooting themselves. Economics sucks donkey balls I know, specially in Estonia. Anyhow, moving on.
 Skullcandy's!! WUUHHUUU, I just love them, they are big, but who cares. Their music quality compared to shity ass Sony ones are amazingly huge difference.
 Disappointment, that is something fishy. I don't like to disappoint people, specially the ones I love and care about, however I tend to do so. Why? I don't know, its a fracking bad habit and I got to loose it. Now it's time to think and focus myself on the part of loosing that nasty habit, for good.

Rush it!

The idea to rush in life is how pointless? Oky ja it is really worthless. I haven't rushed, or maybe I have, but my intentions are strictly based on facts. The oil stocks are so fun to play with, got another 5€ in 29 minutes :D
 I'm wondering though, what is the cause for people smoking cigarettes? I have smoked it, for a couple of years, but that was because I was working as  security guard, and yea it sucked balls when I had to catch teenagers, I hate how they begged to get away. But why do other people smoke? Because they want to look cool? Be different? Or just cause they are nicotine junkies? I got a perfect thing to say, smoking 10-20 smokes per day, for a man, will cause his "kuku" loose his strength in the middle ages. Lucky me, I got the perfect motivation to drop smoking.
 People keep telling me, wordless trance songs are pointless. Pointless my ass!! Saying that means people haven't got any fracking imagination, or fantasies, not to mention dreams. Brain dead suckers hahahah.
Well now I got to finish to my stocks news and then go bed :) But before that LOCKERZ REDEMPTION UWIIIII :)

Sweden?

Oky, so after I came to home, which is in Hiiumaaa, I realized today, we got Sweden in here. I know, I know its funny. Living in Estonia, having Sweden in here, is quite funny.
 Other than that, I hate ice, specially having a slick shoes, and making your way on the road, being an acrobat. Thankfully, I love the snow on each side of the road, easy and soft landing :D

Sensual Wut?

So I figured out what exactly does sensual touch massage is?  Ironic, but I love it, need to some more inspiration  while doing it to her.  However, as much as it may sound funny, I've done massage only a few times in my life, don't believe me, but I have. Some have said, I got golden hands Oo. Never understood what they meant saying that.
Other than that,I love getting news, specially good news. I try ignore and wash away the bad news. SO, here it goes. I can be with Karin  in few days <3 What else? Good news, good news....  ooo. Yesterday I had to walk through 5cm water,in tallinn, because on both side it was clear ice :D 9/10 people who tried sidewalk, failed and fell in the water anyhow. Culture city of europe 2011? haha, My ass that is.

ChikiBriki?

Peek a boo, where's the baby? I just love Ice age, all 3 movies. Even today, I watched Ice Age 1.  Having a wonderful day today, even though my head is still aching, going worse from time to time, but I still am alive, that's the main thing (:
Lockerz, a great site, with lots of fun. I won 2x 150$ paypal checks from VIP auctions. I just laugh all the time, I watch their videos they put up there, its so hilarious. Perfect site :)
I want to get my hands ready for the big shots in stocks. I can't believe how easy it can be for me, earning there is like taking candy of a child, which is rude, but its that easy. Wish me good luck with it and hopefully we will see a new millionaire any time soon (:
Take care people :D

Twisted?!?

The irony of love is incredible. As many of you feel like this headline is weird, try twist your real love, you'll see how weird that is, or in other case, you can try listening to ATB- Twisted Love.
 What else happened today? Ooh, I hate this dam season, everything is melting, including me,when being with her, but the water the snow produces from melting. Sometimes I feel like walking in a river.
 "We say goodbye in pouring rain, and I break down as you walk away" A few weeks ago, during weekend, I felt the same way as that sentence on a song from Hurts- Stay.  Sometimes I feel like each time you had to leave, I would loose you.
 Enough of of this, lets get to real business. <3 My Plus500 stocks gambling :) Now that shit is seriously twisted :)

Get a fact and then act

Looking suspicious now are we? Of course we are, anyhow facts are cool to know and get. Like a chance to get a fact your loving someone? How would you feel? Butterflies in you stomach? Its a great feeling, specially if the person gives you love back.
 Why act when you get the fact? Or let me rephrase it, why wouldn't you act? Think about it, like I have, you'll see a lot of wonders.