Anger is one letter short of danger

So where to start this quite awkward weekend of mine? First of all, I'm really pissed of at certain person, and she bloody hell knows why. But before we move on to why and what has happened, I would love to mention to people that there's a new way for everyone to read this blog. Since I got flamed at, by doing the same things she does, then I shall turn the tables around. It took me all night, but I figured what I can do to make it different from all the other people, who blog. Whenever I shall writing a paragraph about something, I will give you a song you could listen to, to understand me closely, as to the following, lets start. 
P.S Who doesn't listen the songs, are haters! 

 Chapter 1. Darude-Buring

The reasons why I chose this song, is simple, I'm burning inside out right now. I discovered what was done with one of my accounts in a social site, when I gave my trust to her. Imagine the furious in my words, and the anger, the feelings that was deprived inside my soul, they were unleashed. How could someone so dear to me, someone I had my complete trust in, do this awful thing? What was her reason, did she hate me for that? Did she deleted all those of my memories, just to get back at me? Whatever the reasons were, my total trust to her right now, have vanished. And once they are gone, they cannot be reclaimed back, without nearly impossible actions. 

 Chapter 2.  Avenged Sevenfold - Blinded In Chains.


 The really annoying part of my life is, I'm chained and I'm blinded by her. Everything she does, has a big affect on me, everything she says, can make me happy or turn the tide and let me fall into deep depression. Is this a obsession? If so, how can I get out of this shit hole and release myself from my chains? If this is my subconsciousness talking, screw this shit, I wanna break free!


 Chapter 3.  Simple Plan- Shut Up


 Why won't people just shut up? I mean seriously, it is starting to get on my nerves when people start talking with senseless crap, haven't got any idea what is going on, or just try to lie to one another with talks like : " I care about you". Maybe I'm not the perfect guy, but everyone has mistakes. Why don't you just shut your mouth and let me help myself? I know I'm the one everyone loves to hate, but I need someone in my life who knows who I truly am and understands me. Although that person found, she hates me in her own way. 


 Chapter 4. Pitbull feat. Marc Anthony- Rain Over Me

 Girl my body and my mind don't lie! Everything suits perfectly for me when I want to, but when I fail at one thing, everything falls apart. Why? I'm a clumsy freak faggot, told by her, many times, over the past years. After all she has told me, wishing how I never would be in her life, maybe those days are coming. Maybe her 2009 wish will come true and she looses me. What will happen to her and me? I'm already broken and empty from heart, but I cannot tell what goes around in her body and mind.


Chapter 5. Status Quo feat. Scooter- Jump That Rock


 Now lets jump this rock! I wanna build the perfect life for me, and the perfect life consists of 3 things : Her, our success and dreams come true. How to jump into that life? Freaky, but the opportunities are limited and hopeless, but one cannot stop dreaming right? Without dreams we are nothing, without dreams we cannot predict our future. Time to get jiggy with it and move my life on! Forget her? Never, impossible. Be with her? Impossible, but never say never. Make her happy? One can only dream of it, but I cannot give her the happiness she wants, then its nothing between us, but 2 eyes on either end. 


 The conclusion to all this. I sincerely hope everyone respects to my new rules and follow them. I also hope to start a lottery between me and my readers. But the lottery will start next summer, because its time to hit the army. Army, where the boys will loose their body hair and turn into men, a place where you cannot get laid for months and you will start to see 50 year old kitchen women a nice appetizer, a place to grow up and build your own perspective of life.

 Adios.

Timeless moments

"The most important thing is to be whatever you are,without shame"

Fantastic words told by Rod Steiger. You cannot exist in your life, nor can you enjoy it if you feel ashamed of yourself. A personal hint to someone dear of mine.

I'm trying to enjoy my last month by doing the stuff I like:) Freedom before pain :) I'm actually getting more anxious day by day, in the hopes of what awesome techniques I shall learn/obtain and how much pain I shall feel with my body. 
 On the other hand, thanks to the time I spent working in the car wash, I've learned enough stuff and got myself some pretty awesome ideas, of what to plan for the time after army. 
 Yesterday I felt like I was one of the dumbest shitheads in the world. While we was talking and walking along the streets with Karin, while she hummed few really famous artists melodies/symphonies. Seriously I felt like I... well enough of that. I suppose that's what inspired me to take up some books and started learning from my free will?! (Weird and freaky I know) So by the first thing I took clear of was destroying some ideas in my mind, that kinda stopped me from wanting to learn, and it worked(I feel weird though)
 Back to the business, I've finished my Clicbank 1200 paged guide and my head spins like a charm with all the new knowledge, but it was well worth it, cause it gave me pretty nasty but working ideas how to promote some products without even doing anything.
 Anyhow, I need to fix my guitar, the last string ain't doing what it should be doing asdf. I want to learn to play some nice songs, so I can move to another instrument, my long lasting love, Piano.
 I also discovered a certain fact, pretty nasty one, then it hit me, I had done it myself. It's time to quit that nasty habit(its not lieing, I'm done with that shit long time ago) and fix this shit, and it can take months, but then again 8 months in army, can change the problem and finally work as it should.

I so love this picture!!!!




Sum 41- Makes No Difference.

Old, but bloody hell good song :)

 

Things do not happen. Things are made to happen

A quote from a famous person, who's name I don't remember, but it is said very well. The actual point is pretty awesome, since most things just don't happen, its bound to lead from one action to another. But what amazes me most, each negative effect in my life, can lead to several positive effects.


"Why kiss your girlfriend when you can send her an online reminder that you love her. Wait....what?"
 Like omg, that's probably the best sentence I've ever heard, it cracked my balls enough to laugh my stomach into hurting pile of snow. Seriously who would be dumb enough to do such thing? Literally it has to be the most idiotic thing ever.
 I got a compliment about my arms, as they've started to look like a arm not a piece of bone. So this has to mean my own made exercise is working pretty well :) (wiii)  I've also started to give a heavy training to my shoulders and lower back, so I could recover my kyphosis.
 One month to go before hitting to the army!! Oh hell no!!! I somewhat dislike going there, but a part of me still likes to go there. Now I'm confused. 8 months of hardcore training, can be quite good to be honest!

 This picture was taken today morning, 1st of september and I decided to wear some descent clothes and send her to school as her personal body guard :)


 Disturbed-Stricken. pretty awesome song, strongly recommend it!