Lets face it, I have to accept it, no matter what the end results are. Probably the most terrifying idea of all is that I should loose all the contacts with her, to make her, how to say, more human maybe? I suppose I was the true reason behind what ruined both mine and her lives. Looks like it.
It took her 4 years to feel pity for me, 4 hours to be in love with me, 4 minutes to be happy, 4 seconds to loose all those feelings.So what are the true feelings behind us two? My feelings are astonishing, because I can't stop thinking about her no matter what I do, whereever I am or if I'm dead or alive. The worst part is my heart is broken by her, it flew to billions of pieces, it burnt my inside feelings from slim to none however all those feelings put together, I still can proudly and loudly say "I do love Karin" to anyone who asks from me. I have seen thousands of girls when I was visiting Helsinki and Tallinn. Sure 1/3 of them looked like models with big boobs and a face of a beauty queen, yet the amazing thing is I looked at them, talked with few of them, but my heart isn't working at all, it felt nothing.The very same effect is with earthquakes, they come out once every decades or so, yet when they do, they make incredible damage to everyone around it. My heart is simply like that, its quiet for decades, then she opened my heart, my mind, my soul, my everything, and then she took the liberty of putting a bullet in it. I've stayed silent for long time, specially from the inside feelings, but not anymore. What gives the right for people to hurt each other? What gives us the reason to love someone? Why do we love people around us? Is it because we have feelings? How come I don't want to feel that feeling????? What sort of monster am I? My mind is destroying me, my body is shutting down, does this mean I am off to a start of dieing? Step by step, I've lost it all.
How can I turn it upside down? Maybe taking a gun into my hands, pointing it at a direction of my head, and pull the trigger? No, that will not do the trick, I'm not useful as dead, but as alive I'm not useful anyhow. If there is someone in this life who turned my life around its Karin. I had been a total waste before I knew her, and all those 3 years I did knew her, all those times she flamed and blamed me at everything, it just tore me apart but somehow she also took the liberty of putting me back together. She is the only one who can kill me and revive.
What are the feelings you get when your in love? Think about it and it will show you the true person who you are in love with.
Violin Hip Hop - Broken Sorrow
Laterz and thanks for reading(like someone actually does read it)
It took her 4 years to feel pity for me, 4 hours to be in love with me, 4 minutes to be happy, 4 seconds to loose all those feelings.So what are the true feelings behind us two? My feelings are astonishing, because I can't stop thinking about her no matter what I do, whereever I am or if I'm dead or alive. The worst part is my heart is broken by her, it flew to billions of pieces, it burnt my inside feelings from slim to none however all those feelings put together, I still can proudly and loudly say "I do love Karin" to anyone who asks from me. I have seen thousands of girls when I was visiting Helsinki and Tallinn. Sure 1/3 of them looked like models with big boobs and a face of a beauty queen, yet the amazing thing is I looked at them, talked with few of them, but my heart isn't working at all, it felt nothing.The very same effect is with earthquakes, they come out once every decades or so, yet when they do, they make incredible damage to everyone around it. My heart is simply like that, its quiet for decades, then she opened my heart, my mind, my soul, my everything, and then she took the liberty of putting a bullet in it. I've stayed silent for long time, specially from the inside feelings, but not anymore. What gives the right for people to hurt each other? What gives us the reason to love someone? Why do we love people around us? Is it because we have feelings? How come I don't want to feel that feeling????? What sort of monster am I? My mind is destroying me, my body is shutting down, does this mean I am off to a start of dieing? Step by step, I've lost it all.
How can I turn it upside down? Maybe taking a gun into my hands, pointing it at a direction of my head, and pull the trigger? No, that will not do the trick, I'm not useful as dead, but as alive I'm not useful anyhow. If there is someone in this life who turned my life around its Karin. I had been a total waste before I knew her, and all those 3 years I did knew her, all those times she flamed and blamed me at everything, it just tore me apart but somehow she also took the liberty of putting me back together. She is the only one who can kill me and revive.
What are the feelings you get when your in love? Think about it and it will show you the true person who you are in love with.
Violin Hip Hop - Broken Sorrow
Laterz and thanks for reading(like someone actually does read it)
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