Monday, April 11, 2011

Nightmares

Like anyone else, I too have fears in my life, and the biggest of all, is loosing Karin. I....I'm just afraid too much right now.
 Few days ago, I had a dream of similar to this situation, and its happening, I don't know what should I do, I'm just freaking out. 
 What will happen tomorrow? What will happen the day after tomorrow? Everything has collapsed in the past 24 hours, my life, my dreams, my hopes, my wishes.
 Nothing to do, but sit and cry, sleep and shake, hoping that anything I would do, would make it all go away, but in reality it doesn't change a bit.

 I love Karin more than my own life, she broke up with me, it tore me apart, I wanted to scream, I yelled at myself for being a complete moron.
Love, it hurts me more than getting stabbed in the back.